Hey Beauties!!
Here’s a journal entry of mine from September 2018 (9/16/18).!
Read, be inspired, be encouraged and be sure to leave comments and/or questions below!
The spirit of boredom comes when you are actually at peace. It’s meant to distract you from peace. It comes to shake the structure, the foundation, and the atmosphere of peace. It desires to connect you back to the former things to try to trap you again. The enemy is subtle and what seems like boredom may just be a distraction from your peace God has supplied you with.
Take note of your thoughts when boredom arises. What are your thoughts suggesting you do? Who do you want to engage with? Where do you want to be? What other emotions do you feel.? All of that is important in how it relates to identifying the enemy’s traps and schemes. Once we’re able to identify how the enemy tries to grip us, we can go to God for strength in those areas. We can get covered mentally. We can begin to redirect our thoughts. We can then be grateful for peace and embrace it instead of running away from it or forfeiting it.
THIS spirit of “boredom” came upon me April 2017. I had just birthed out dreams/visions and gotten a deeper holy language. I has been baptized and I was happy.!!! My daughter was happy! I was in a place of peace and joy. So what happened.???
Peace is foreign to someone who has lived in dysfunction for some period of time. It becomes so out of the norm that when it’s present, it feels awkward. It feels like nothing is happening and like “something” should be going on.. After all, when your Life is like an action movie, down time, quietness or stillness is strange.
Up until that moment, I hadn’t experienced peace since 2011. I allowed “boredom” to push me back to drinking and smoking which opened the door to partying heavily. Soon after, the enemy set up the “love trap”.
Sidebar: I’m a emotional being; I feel everything first which is great because it allows me to provide the best empathy and love for/to complete strangers... however, for this very reason, it’s important for me to properly manage my emotions and not be carried away by them.
The love trap was intense, and “passionate” so to speak.. giving me all the feels of “this is it”, maybe I can start a life/relationship with you. The enemy knew my desire for marriage and companionship and more children etc so he tried tried to use guys and sex and relationships as a means to destroy me. And not just “intimate” relationships, but friendships as well.
Above all, I have to make note that My spirit felt the FAMILIARITY of the people, the situations, and relationships all together. As with my first marriage, I saw all of the RED FLAGS and signs not to proceed. But the burning desire to be connected to someone, to have someone next to me every night, to “feel” loved and cared for and protected... I chose to ignore them. That FAMILIAR SPIRIT not only showed up in people, but also in my life because chaos emerged.
God spared me!! He saved me!! Yet again!!
There came a point when I realized or came back to reality rather that “THIS isn’t what I want or desire for my life or my daughters life”. I don’t have the energy for drama filled situationships. I don’t desire to live the street life. I don’t desire to smoke and drink all day and call it “fun”. Writing & Speaking about this made me realize how much purpose God has truly placed inside of me.
Overall, the point is, BOREDOM is what triggered many cycles and situationships that I could have avoided.
A prayer/Affirmations were written. Feel free to write them and use them yourself!
God get me back to PEACE.!!
Lord get me back to SOBRIETY.!!
Lord get me POSITIONED, PREPARED, & in great POSTURE for my husband.!!
Lord FOCUS my thoughts upon You and Your goodness.!!
Father, GUIDE ME, BRING WISDOM & CLARITY along this road of COMPLETION.!!
Lord God, Enlarge my territory.!
Lord INCREASE Me mentally, spiritually, emotionally, physically, financially, and any other ways you see fit!!
Jesus create in me a NEW HEART, & CLEAN/PURE Spirit.!!
LORD HELP ME TO ADJUST MY LIFE SO THAT IT REFLECTS YOU AND YOUR LOVE AND GRACE AND MERCY. HELP ME ADJUST MY MIND, MY SPIRIT, MY HEART ETC.!! LORD ADJUST ME.!! SHIFT ME.!! Thrust me into that hard working, intelligent, mother, wife, student, entrepreneur, friend, daughter, role model etc you have called me to do.!! Thank you Lord for Change on this day.! Thank you for the Transition.!! Thank you for the people on my life.! Cover and protect my family and I on today.! In Jesus mighty name, Amen 🙏🏽
P.S.: Your present state and perspective is a direct connection to the condition of your heart.